Looking back

Went to stalk one of my friend in the middle of doing assignment

 I used to be a stalker,lol

Not stalk la, just viewing her album.

Sometimes I envy those people that have bunches of best friends and they will do something happy, silly to each others. Until this moment I am still envy. 

Looking back at the past, in my secondary school, I didn't really socialise with my schoolmates, I used stick together with my sister and her friends. Else I will mix with my Malay or Indian friends. Ya, they are nice friends and I glad we still contact with each other. Not very often but at least wishing each other during our own special days, giving each other a smile while we posted some emo post, hahaha.

I am not that kind of very passionate very eager to meet new friends people. 

And I not those that will maintain a very good relationship with him/her so that our friendship can last forever.

Sometime I just don't feel like :"Oh how are you today""lets go somewhere to eat""why you look so down today""Oh you have any problem? Come lets share"

I don't really care why he/she unhappy if I don't really close with him/her even though we might know each other for quite a long time.

So if I really ask these kind of questions, means I really wanna know, not pretending, not wanting to make my gang bigger, nothing but care.  

If I really like you, as a friend, I will be there for you, really. If I dislike you, I will ignore you. If I hate you, whatever you do you gonna piss me off and I won't give a damn on you if you need me help or talk to me. LOL. 

But I guess not much of people can bear my response as sometimes they might feel that I am kinda unconcerned to anything. 

I remember somebody told me this:"You can live alone, but need friends sometimes"

I said nothing that time. It might be true, it might be not true. I don't know. As that's how others see me.

No one in this world can live alone. Not you. Not me.

Not me, I can't. I hate being lonely. If I can live alone I won't be sad whenever I know I cant go home during the weekend.

Nothing to be envy thought. People will treat you the way you treat them. 

That kind of friendship that I want for,I think I will never get. Because I know my attitude don't attract that kind of friendship, haha.

Whatever is it, I am still very glad that I never be lonely.

I have erm, the word best friend sounds weird here, friends-who-really-knows-me in my life.

Primary school

Secondary school

Form 6 

University 

Different people came in and most of them are still by my side.

I am really appreciate.

Enough of the crap, I seriously don't have enough time to complete all my stuff.

See ya.