OMG

I just said bye bye to my bloggie but now I am here, halfway of studying my Life Process, 

creating a new post again. 

But I just need to write down my thoughts.

So many thoughts in my head now that make me hardly to focus on my study

I just received a message from our college's secretary saying that I have been accepted for the first section interview of PM.

I was like YES!! =DD

CHOSEN!!

I can feel the joyful jumping inside me!

But reality clash me in the next second.

PM, study, chinese dance, chinese community

I CANT HANDLE EVERYTHING NEXT SEM.

I was holding my phone, with the rejected message typed in the reply message,

but I just don't feel like sending it.

I wanna text back:"Terima kasih, saya akan hadir" instead of "Minta maaf, saya TIDAK akan hadir"

='(

I dunno since when myself have changed so much.

I dunno since when I become so eager to try something that I haven't try before

something that I wouldn't have chance to try again when I leave university

this is like a very special chance to me, because not everybody will be selected for the interview

this idea make me wanna grab this opportunity even more tightly! 

I want to fill my uni life with colour and different experiences!

but I guess is too late now?

I already replied him, I guess he already find another person to replace me..

I dunno..

Feel kinda emo..

sad as well..

Sigh..

I wanna tell Miss Lily so much that I rather spend my time for PM instead of Chinese Dance Club

I really wanna do it,

call her right now

but I dont dare, I don knw whether the name can be replace or not as the new name list already submitted.

What for bringing people trouble?

I regret.

This moment I regret.

Regret for not saying yes for the interview.

But I guess I wont regret when I get a better result next year?

='(